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say no to NYR!

Posted: January 27, 2011 in bla bla bla, damdoumization, life, random, thoughts

I dont think i ever had a new years resolution. ever. oh no wait. i did but never kept it :S by Jan 3rd I had already broken it and it felt horrible to betray myself like that. I like to be a person of actions, not words. And i did not keep my promise to myself that year. (yes, it was to quit smoking! and yes i did quit it eventually. cold turkey. never looked back. yay for me!)

so this year, I am adopting a new motto. no promises. just changes i wish to incorporate in my life this year going forward… i love lists so here’s one!

1. Forgive yourself

Forgiveness is primarily taking less personal offense, reducing anger, and the blaming of the offender. It also consists of developing an understanding of situations that lead to hurt and anger. I am not saying it will be easy. but one needs to resolve past issues. have a mental cleanse. we need to let go of negativity we hold on to for long. letting go is the best thing one can do of hurt. why would anyone want to hold on to hurt anyway? victimizing ourselves will only create more mental clutter, if that’s the right word. best thing I learned is to resolve all internal issues, once the healing is complete, I can move on with no negative emotions, and then I embrace life with an open heart. I plan to keep doing that. It de-burdens me of the weight on my shoulders.

2. Laugh from the heart

Someone once said: Laughter is good for the soul. and science says laughing out loud is good for your lungs, but more so for your spirituality. it is so not worth it being stressed out all the time, I see stress as a silent killer. Smiling has an optimistic effect on people, and its contageous. So is laughing.  I sometimes induce it even if I dont feel like it, just as soon as I start feeling a little down, I put on family guy or friends or even watch some silly show and just laugh. it is not crazy. I believe it is one of the healthiest of my new founds habits. So start smiling and it will become second nature!

3. Love thy friends

self explanatory i reckon..

4. Lose the nuisance

I have introduced a new policy to my relationship book of rules and regulations. If you’re bringing in drama, then I do not associate with you. I do not need drama, I do not tolerate drama, and I will not allow drama near me. Whoever you may be. My idea of friends are people who come into our lives, and bring a learning experience, assist us to growth, love us unconditionally, be there when we need them, and confide in us if they need us, laugh with us, and bring in positivity into our lives just by being present in it! If your only purpose in life is whining all the time, complaining and demanding undevided attention because you’re the victim of a world wide conspiracy against you, then I apologize, I have no place for you in my life. This policy is working for me. You may call me ruthless, but it is working for me. life is too short to waste it on people who only channel negativity.

And that’s all kids. If you have things that aren’t working for you, change them. Introduce positive chi. and have a safe and happy year!

new year!

Posted: January 3, 2011 in bittersweet, bla bla bla, random, thoughts

I CANNOT BELIEVE WHERE THE TIME HAS GONE! I absolutely can’t believe I turned 30 in December. I left my twenties behind. 10 years of my life. ZERO accomplishment. well not zero per se, but so many things I thought were something, turned out to be mere nothings, and so many things I wanted to do and accomplish but never got around to doing, because I was preoccupied with the nothings that I thought were somethings…

That is why, I am determined to  make 2011 the best year ever! I have a plan. I finally have a plan. I did not plan anything since I graduated uni, at 20 incidently, never saw them through. and then vowed not to make any plans so I won’t get disappointed. That kinda spells out failure really… To fear disappointment… it’s like inviting it. anticipating it. expecting it. This time I won’t expect anything. I will just work at it. and with God’s grace. get where I want.

so many things happened lately. 2010 was definitely better than 2009, but it wasn’t ideal, nor stressfree, nor even pleasant. except for the end of it, it ended on a good note thank God. Sometimes, things ending gives way to things beginning.

Here’s wishing you all a wonderful year! Live to the fullest, love unconditionally, and let go of all negativity.

The Power of Suggestion!

Posted: April 7, 2010 in bla bla bla, random

its so amazing how one little line across the web will cause panic everywhere in the world with access to the internet. I especially remember this little episode while stating my thought about an event that happened today.. obviously involving spreading a little nasty false fact online!

its a fine day!

Posted: March 3, 2010 in bla bla bla, random

you know what fine stands for? it stands for Freaked out, Insecure, Neurotic, and Emotional.

So its no wonder that most people think they will be just fine!

Unattainables..

Posted: February 20, 2010 in i wanna know, random

We all long for some things (or ones) that are out of our reach, or maybe not meant to be but we do not know it yet.

How do you go after what you want? Do you just believe that these things (or people) are not meant to happen to you? Or do you keep presisting and working and trying? what about that someone who you really want to be with, but is  taken, or maybe doesnt know you exist yet, or is a friend and you fear ruining what you have.. how do you pursue your dream and only desire of being with him/her? Would you give up on it? Or give it all you have?

What makes you lose hope on anything that you want and crave and feel you are rightfully entitled to in life?

a new year!

Posted: January 9, 2010 in bla bla bla, i wanna know, life, random

usually means new hopes, for me its just a sigh of relief that finally 2009 is over! OMG what a crappy year it was. I havent written in a while, not because something is up, only that life happens sometimes, and I get uninspired and out of time to write anything.. Changes at work, good changes il7amdila (thank God) and house hunting as I plan to move into another house closer to work, found a place last week thankfully and should be disappearing again to move in another 2 weeks. Im getting a new boss next week, that is the happy change lol, my ex boss (the horrible one) moved on to another role and finally I do not report to him anymore. New boss is a female boss! also I heard she is a feminist, which is just great as I am one too, she loves empowering the women in her office, so  I am very hopeful. May God make 2010 a blessed year for everyone. I think it just cant get worse than 2009.

I have been hooked on youtube channels lately, I love checking out randomness, but I have been really addicted to a couple of beauty channels.. how girly of me! I just realized that I love makeup! I dont usually sport a caked face, on the contrary, my routine is very natural, but its fascinating how corrective and enhancing products can be. Some people however have the wrong understanding of the basics of applying makeup.. it especially shocks me to see teenagers having more makeup than I do on at 8 am going to school or uni! why? seriously.

I guess people have a distorted image of themselves, even at a young age, everyone wants to be someone else. not many satisfied girls with their looks, and so many try to change these looks in the most dramatic ways. which is sad. I applaud change, and its nice to always have a new do or new ways of wearing makeup but not cover up your initial features to appeal to the outside world. Im pretty sure the outside world is gonna be just fine with the original version of you. people’s self acceptance levels arent very impressive these days. I will not blame the media as everyone does. or at least. i wont blame the media fully. the way we absorb media is not ideal either, as most believe and follow it blindly. You only need to take in what will work for you and not just take in everything, toxic or not.

and on a separate note, my neighbours  have the noisiest kid ever, but I dont mind it much as she’s just a toddler, she doesnt comprehend. however, they bought the most annoying cockatoo bird and placed it on the window’s ledge! which is so adjacent to my window I can actually reach out and suffocate the living hell out of it! But since I am an animals rights activist, I am just thinking of the ways I can release the gate to its cage and just let it roam and fly and tweet its heart out freely, in someone else’s neighbourhood!

I hope you welcomed the new year in a good way, nothing too crazy and wild :-p I did not do anything special really, I am not the partying type.. So it was a quiet night with my sister’s family, her in-laws, and my favorite uncle who is in town for a while.. I do not usually have any resolutions made on new years, as most people, including myself, never come through with any.. however, this year I promised myself a healthier lifestyle.

What were your resolutions this year, if any?

whats with

Posted: December 21, 2009 in bla bla bla, random, shocking, Uncategorized

people and stars in specific dying so young??? (and by young i mean they’re not 60 yet!)

Brittany Murphy this morning, age 32.

Stephen Gateley, age 33.

Chris Henry, age 26 .

Michael Jackson, age 50.

Patrick Swayze, age 57.

Heath Ledger, age 28.

Makes me ponder.

Death is always sad, and I know I shouldn’t think that it’s sadder and unfair because they were too young, but a part of me does think that..

randomness

Posted: November 20, 2009 in bla bla bla, movies, music, random

* I know i might sound like a silly teenager for looking forward to the new moon movie, but I am! And no, I am not in any way attracted to any of the characters! actually a few co-workers refer to robert (edward) as shovel face. and I agree, not my cuppa. very flat faced. anyway, I am actually looking forward to the new movie in the saga. further to wanting to watch it, I would like to read the rest of the books. I believe books are more interesting than movie makes of them. and certainly, anything vampire related is bound to become a fave of mine. I dont really know what fascinates me so much with darkness, and blood, and this sadistic instinct with a hint of subliminal violence.. but it does. I mellowed out in the gothic image area, except for the dark eye, but on the inside, i very much am a practicing goth! everything Acheronic is way more interesting than clear, bright, common things/lifestyles. At least in my eyes..

* I always get excited this time of year, seriously December is my favorite month only for the festivity! I love the colours of christmas, the spirit, the tree! this year I am really looking forward to the million holidays in December, thinking of taking 2 days off at some point, dont plan to go anywhere, but just kick back and relax, preferably with a book and a good massage lol. I am developing a cooking craze though, I would love to bake more, one day! I actually suck at baking or making desserts.. unless its cheesecake or cold stuff.. so maybe I can get inspired with the festive season as baked goods are everywhere, and I actually love the idea of giving home baked sweets as gifts.

* They unblocked deviantart! lululululeesh!

* This must be my new fave clip, Shakira ‘Did It Again’ i love the martial art-ish bits.
I like! Oh and the song isnt bad either..

 

music list

Posted: November 8, 2009 in bla bla bla, random, stuff

I am very much into heavy metal, alternative, goth metal, and grotesque (mainly MM), but lately I have been listening to a lot of rnb/hip hop on the radio and some *gulp* pop music!

To my horror, I find myself liking the songs below lately:

1. Rihana – Russian Roulette
2. Sean Paul – Press It Up
3. Guy Manoukian – Shooting Star
4. Wiley – Wearing My Rolex (shockingly grows on you!)
5. Lady Gaga (whose real name is *brace yourself* Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta!) – Bad Romance
6. Pitbull *drool* – Room Service
7. Jay Z + Rihanna – Run This Town
8. Timbaland + Missy Elliot – Get involved
9. Timbaland + Nelly Furtado – Morning After

so its kind of a big change to my usual stuff.. but its ok to listen to sth that doesnt ivolve a lot of hearing impairing loudness and suicidal thoughts.

dia de los muertos

Posted: October 30, 2009 in around the world, random, stuff

was a three day celebration starting 31 Oct ending 2 Nov. Modern day Dia de los Muertos is celebrated on 1 & 2 Nov only.

 

Dia de los muertos (Day of the Dead) is a ritual practiced for at least 3000 years in what is now called Mexico. Its simply a way to honor the dead, and celebrate their lives. Instead of fearing death, the aztecs and other meso-american cultures embraced death and celebrated it. Sugar skulls are baked with the names of the deceased on the forehead, and gets consumed by the family and relatives of the deceased. They decorate cemeteries, bring their deceased loved ones’ favorite foods, and sit on blankets at night talking about their fondest memories and eating these foods. Celebrating death and rebirth.

I am fascinated with the colourful skulls to be honest. I would love to get one as a memorial tattoo for dad. I vowed once never to get any faces inked on my skin although i have a perfect picture of dad (allah yer7amo) back in the 70s, black and white and very classical but beautiful, so a day of the dead sugar skull would be the next best thing.

I donno if any of you goes trick or treating, or dresses up for a halloween house party, but whatever you do tomorrow, have fun and celebrate life!

blehs..

Posted: October 22, 2009 in bla bla bla, ma7alli, random, thoughts

* TGIT! seriously, that was one of the longest weeks in history. well in my (short) history! its funny how happiness/misery sometimes can be a powerful time measurement unit! I wonder about the ancient times, before watches and sand clocks, how did they measure time when they were happy/miserasble? i mean we can say “the hours stretched forever” or ” the minutes wouldnt pass”, how about them? were they aware of the concept of time? or was it only measured by day and night in their heads.. worth googling i reckon! or snuggling in bed tonight with my best friend, the Discovery Channel <3<3<3 

* I thought i was such a good judge of character in the past, and now I am more sure than ever. Since i moved into the new office, i have observed everyone, I tend to take my sweet long time to mingle and make friends as i am a firm believer that there are no friends at work. Everyone will in the end worry bout theirselves. But if someone opens up, i give my two ears to listen! lol. so this girl who sits fairly close to my desk and i have been talking more frequently lately, general stuff, we’re both into astronomy/astrology, books, and jewelry : D but the other day she started telling me the office gossip. And its fascinating that most are just as filthy, and some, just as evil, and others, just as manipulating as i expected them to be. even though i did not engage in any talk with any. it’s not that i impressed myself. but it’s just funny how the human race can sometimes be so predictable.

* over the weekend as I was driving back from my sister’s place, i had to pass through al Quoz road, and to my joy and ultimate happiness, i found a huge traffic tail, as i somehow get clausterphobic, i got out of the car for a minute in the stand still to see what was holding us up. turns out the first car in the tail line was a cab, whose driver was honking frantically loud at two peacocks crossing the road AS IF they would listen or be bothered! its so weird that on al Quoz road you would see more exotic animals than you would at Jumeirah Zoo! i once saw a deer and its fawn crossing, someone was once mentioning they saw a couple of monkeys on that road too, and my boss was telling us the other day that he saw a leopard crossing! can you imagine your state of mind if you see a free wild leopard just crossing the street? I would panic and faint!! It seems there’s some mansion or sheikh’s palace there.

after a long (and boring) training session today.. this was very spot on. Have a good weekend everyone!

Yes, its another ‘fashion dont’ post. and I will post for both genders, dont feel like writing two posts : D

Nail art: if you like art, buy a painting! having all these colours and designs on one of the smallest paintable parts of your body is not flattering. either french it, or stick to one colour.

Mullets: business in the front, party at the back. this look is so 80s, and it should have stayed there!

The male goth look: keep the pale foundation, black eyeshadow, and wine lips for women please. that look has goth to go!

Tiaras: unless you’re the queen of england, or a beauty queen, or natalie portman, refrain from wearing a tiara in public. you can play princess at home. alone.

Oversized bags: like outrageously oversized it would fit an infant. not flattering or fashionable at all.

Top to bottom branded items: a bag is enough, and maybe a pair of shoes. but full on head to toe will only make you look like designer luggage.

Funky coloured leather/suede: if you dont see that colour in nature on some animal then its not the way God intended it to be. You dont see pink cows, why wear a pink suede trouser? with the exception of red leather jackets, everything else is a no!

Satin and lace shirts: fit for the bedroom, and not the boardroom. (no pic, use imagination)

The side swept high ponytail: if you’re over 6 years of age, keep your ponytail behind you.

Mesh tops: need i say more? :la6im:

Last friday in Ramadan

Posted: September 18, 2009 in feelings, random

And what did i do? Nothing! Absolutely nothing.

I am not one bit happy with my ‘activity’ this Ramadan. I had so much to do, humanitarian work, relatives visiting, work load was a bit more than usual, and the little time i had left, was not enough for all the religiousness i was planning to catch up on..

It seems that every year that goes by, im losing the energy i had, for midnight prayer for example.. and i dont necessarily like it.. i feel guilty in fact!

Wishing you all a serene end to a peaceful month. and a Happy Eid : )

thoughts..

Posted: September 11, 2009 in bla bla bla, damdoumization, dubai, random, thoughts

* i always used to think people were gluttons for happy endings, but with every incident that happens i become more convinced that people (in our part of the world) CRAVE drama, whether its a car accident, a fire, religiously watching a soap opera, a public lovers’ quarrel, or even someone tumbling and falling in the street! we just have to watch it! the psychologist in me suggests its because of wanting to see others in bad situations, a resounding conviction of  ‘life isnt always perfect to others’ it makes one feel better about one’s life in a way..  but still people, go to therapy in Dubai and STOP RUBBERNECKING on the roads! Some of us would like to reach their destinations!

* One of the things i hate bout this city is that there are no theatres, art cinemas, proper museums, and more cultural events worth attending.. I long for a good foreign movie! or a trip to a good museum, that will actually entice me more than Dubai museum of the ‘old’ heritage of this city. i need something more than 40 years old! I hope now that we have a modern metro system, that someone will actually come up with something less expensive and more educational and cultural. Bleh!

* The new office has such a different culture than the old, not that the old one had any definite culture to begin with, but the new place has a more enviting aura. I am not the type who actually believes in office frienships, as most of them are superficial and periodic, once you leave, you’re forgotten. But this office begs to differ. I see a lot of people who enjoy a professional atmosphere but have strong friendships amongst them outside of the office, which is, quite frankly, very refreshing! I’m not sure i will be makng any of those strong friendships, but I am enjoying a healthier environment. Il7amdila.

* and on a final and completely irrelevant note, my thought of the day: ” A divorce paper is one that gives a wife the upper hand, and gives the husband the middle finger! “

Peekaboo!

Posted: September 11, 2009 in damdoumization, life, me me me, random

Wow, i have been so away for so long, what has it been now, 4 months? give or take. had a lot to deal with. Changed jobs, finally! I couldnt be happier thank God, il7amdila, im finally back in my element. Personal Banking. No more crappy boss, who incidently, was laid off shortly after i left. I had a tough time on my exit interview, as i was debating the idea of snitching, many of his actions and transactions were completely against compliance (and work ethics) rules. To be honest, my conscience wouldnt have been cleared had i done that. God has his ways. and his cover was blown eventually. Thank God i had no hand in that. seriously. even if it were the right thing to do. I would have felt horrible doing it. Anyway. its all past me now. So totally over. I have a new beginning, and im very content with God’s blessings. Please God, keep them pouring!

I was planning on taking the  metro this weekend, just for the heck of it, from the first station, to the very last one. and back again! lol. But will do that next weekend hopefully. I have never been on a metro can you believe that? all the travel i have done, never once went. i may have an underlying fear of it with all the accidents we hear lol but seriously, i love driving! i dont think i can depend on any other form of uncontrolled transport! especially that our metro has no driver :S feels kinda weird. I just hope it eases traffic, whether i take it or not!

I am developing a craze for books recently! I am especially head over heels for Paulo Coelho. Reading The Zahir now. Just finished Veronika Decides to Die. surprisingly not the dark novel i expected it to be. its kind of life-enhancing! as all Paulo creations i reckon. I also got Deepak Chopra’s Grow Younger, Live Longer. lol. i know, too soon, and so unneeded since everyone thinks im 22-23, while i am fastly approaching 30. Hope that trend sticks on for another 20 years!

I will be back, but i have an urge to go blog hopping. I must have missed out on so many good writings, and many events in your lives..

Lyrics of the day

Posted: January 25, 2009 in bla bla bla, music, random

Premeditation will kill the trust
They’ll never know if you fear me
With every second collecting dust
I feel so bloated and weary

……

 
She’ll cut you down with a single thrust
She’s taken over too quickly
No medication can cure the lust
So say a prayer for the sickly

from my favorite band at the moment, Seether, song called Like Suicide.

i will not post accompanying pictures, since its a long post!

25.  octopus: especially baby octopus, deep fried with tartar or marinara sauce, or simply in a salad, yum!! it might not look very appealing in the raw, but when cooked the taste is heavenly.

24. gazelle meat:  in my meat eating days i was pretty adventurous with the meat i tried. and gazelle or dear meat was exquisite! very woody kinda earthy taste, dark meat, cooked to perfection with red potatoes and gravy.. num!

23. Lobster: this sweet meat has to be eaten at least once before one moves on! its light, sweet, succulent, and simple.

22. sushi:  sushi must be my favorite, even though i dont eat red meat or white, i love seafood! and i crave every once in a while, and usually in the form of sushi. i do not appreciate sashimi but sushi is amazing, especially with a heavy dose of wasabi! Yum!

21. hot dog from a street cart! lol i dont think there’s anything better than that! warm bread, all the toppings one would wish, and the great outdoors! (for those of you in the states, dont take that delicacy for granted!)

20. curry:  i think the indian cuisine is one of the best if not the ultimate best in rich, colourful, spicey aromatic foods. and curry being the king of all food, best if eaten in south india, or southern indian restaurants, coz they make the best curries ever!

19. spanish paella: paella is a unique ‘saucepan’ dish from spain, that is both spicey and very de-lish however made! usually its a mix of rice, meat, seafood, vegetables, beans, and spices cooked together with meat/veggie stock and chili paste, you can be creative with the ingredients, or even cook it vegetarian!

18.  mexican mole: bit of a wierd combination, but its a sauce made of chile and chocolate served over meat!  it tastes great whatever the meat used is.. i like the idea of chocolate with salty foods, it makes it more interesting, like in the french cuisine they have an amazing dish of grilled fish and white choc sauce.

17. authentic wood fired oven baked pizza: this is my ultimate favorite! even more than wood fire ovens, i love pizza made on charcoal (like the turkish pizza) that is a must try (and a sure instant love)!

16. sweet potato: as a main dish or dessert, sweet potato is a delicious veggie that is versatile and goes nicely with lamost all cuisines.  i personally like it as sweet potato tempura, or sweet potato pie, but many mash it instead of normal potatoes as it is lower in carb and is suitable for ppl following the GI diet.

15. chowder soup: my favorite type of soup, its chunky, thickened with crackers, its got a creamy base (usually made out of milk, skimmed milk can be used also, hurrah!) the most famous chowder soup is clam chowder, but i personally love potato, corn or mixed vegetable chowder soup more. healthy, chunky, and so good in the cold days!

14. miso soup: or ‘dashi’ is a traditional Japanese soup made out of miso paste some add tofu, some add veggies, the variations are vast but the base is one. a very healthy Japanese snack or side dish, and i think everyone should try it at least once in their lifetime..

13. lucky # 13 is paneer: most famous in indian/persian cuisine. the non melting, non fat cheese cubes incorporated in many vegetarian dishes and i personally love the indian use of paneer in dishes like paneer makhni or dingri mattar paneer.. once tried, you will fall in love instantly!

12. salted lassi: keeping with the indian cuisine, also widely drunk in pakistan and neighbouring south asian countries, is lassi. i love the salted one more than the sweet one coz it makes more sense! its simply yoghurt mixed with a bit of water, salt, pepper, cumin seeds, and sometimes milk and lemon juice.  perfect for summer days!

11. pumpkin hummus: this is a great chinese take on the traditional middle eastern hummus! and it is  a must try. no regrets there i assure you…

10. durian fruit:  the notorious foul smelled fruit that has been banned from buses, hotels, and hospitals in many asian countries, in fact some countries may fine you if you get into a cab or a bus with a durian fruit in your lap! it is a creamy sweet tasting fruit, if you can get past its horrible smell, it tastes like.. vanilla pudding! Durian is also known for its healthy benefits as it cures insomnia, OCD, suicidal depression, parkinson’s disease, PMS, and also can curb a glutton appetite since its rich in proteins and minerals and very filling.

9. dragon fruit: funky color! and tastes amazing. also very healthy and is known to reduce weight and reverse diabetes type 2 if eaten regularly. i love the scent and color of it more than my love for its taste to be frank!

8. rambutans: the overall image isnt so appealing and one may take time to figure out how to tackle it, but once you get there, oh wow the sweetest, silkiest, and most refreshing fruit ever is just waiting! One of my favorites and although i sometimes wish it did not have a seed (flaky skinned seed that you should avoid at all costs when digging into a rambutan) but still is one of my faves!

7. freshly baked saj goodies: i love saj, especially in winter, freshly made before your eyes, with tons of zatar and cheese, and just baked to a perfect crunch! YUM! with mint tea and great company, this is prolly one of the (many) things i would love to eat right  before i die! lol

6. pocky: a japanese snack simply being biscuit sticks dipped in chocolate or strawberry! i love them and the original ones should be tried at least once in a lifetime. recently the variations have become endless: cherry cream covered, almond bits and choc, coffee, toffee, banana and choc, vanilla, and the last i tried was an amazing Glico bitter chocolate pocky! Yum-eee! the japanese come up with the craziest stuff most of the time, but pocky, is a sane yet very addictive treat!  

5. krispy kreme’s original glazed doughnut:  ‘nuf said!

4. MacDonald’s Big Mac: again ‘nuf said!

3. freshly bakes ice cream cones: first, they smell alluring and drool inducing! secondly, they taste just out of this world when they’re fresh!

2. home grown tomatoes: there is nothing more fulfilling than picking up vegetable and fruits and legumes from your own back yard, but even more so if that home grown item is a red, rich, sweet, and juicy tomato! seriously, unbelievable.

1. choclate mousse cheesecake: this i bet women will agree with me on, but men will appreciate since its the most sinful item of food that you can ever sink your teeth into! actually u will not need to use teeth for this as it melts so seductively in your mouth infusing all that (fat) rich taste.. ahhhh! beautiful!

this is my list, feel free to add or even make up your own!
enjoy good food, be adventurous, try new things, especially in their native country, try to stay healthy with your choices, at least most of the time 😉 you can always indulge every once in a while..

bla bla bloo

Posted: December 7, 2008 in bla bla bla, inside out, random, rant, sad me

* what is it bout national day that makes ppl ‘snap’ in this country! the traffic and accidents and ta5mees and burning wheels and face paint and all that crap! its ittihad, not ta7reer!

* as Eid drops by every year, i find myself more detached of every jolly emotion it should bring.. im more convnced that Eid and all other celebrated occasions, are mostly great forkids.. adults lose something as they get older that doesnt make em enjoy these celebrations.. but the wierdest thing is, i love christmas! of course  for the decorations and colors and all that, not for the religious reason behind it.  oh and Kel 3am w ento b5eir.

* why is it that men hate questions so much!? normal questions and innocent inquiries make a man blow up! inno r their brains designed differently!? like to identify any form of query as nagging! eft! i have no idea how we came from that creature’s rib!

* im sick of everything and need a MAJOR change. suggestions!?

crash and burn..

Posted: November 23, 2008 in bla bla bla, feelings, inside out, life, random, thoughts

hope

sometimes.. you plan something unintentionally.. its not like you plan it on paper and figure out all its details, just something you want to happen.. sometime in the future in a way or another.. you’re just taking it a day at a time.. all signs are positive.. everything seems to be heading that way.. then something happened.. life happened. and life is a hoe.

so what is one to do when one’s plans come crashing down? one cant give up! coz i believe that winners never quit, and quitters never win. but how do you go on with your life when something that has taken a huge part of your time, effort, emotions, money and years, just doesnt seem to be coming together into reality anymore!?

im a strong person, who has a lot of faith in myself and in God and in fate and karma, and all things spiritual, i believe that some factors of life are out of our control, and the remaining most, is usually in our hands. i’ve never lacked patience… yet i find myself hopeless now. and i hate that feeling!

looking at my last post, i think im coming across as a whiner!! but for those who know me in person, and they are very few.. you know im not. i just have more on my plate than ever before.. apologies to the readers (if any)! lol

BO

Posted: November 5, 2008 in damdoumization, life, random, thoughts

no not Body Odor! 😀

President Obama, first black president in the white house.

will we finally see shades of gray?

3 & 4

Posted: November 3, 2008 in damdoumization, people, random, relationships, thoughts

4 words a man never wants to hear: “we need to talk”
since usually they’re followed up by 4 words he knows he will hear: “this is not working!”

3 words a woman fears to ask: “what are we”
since she will probably hear the next 3 words: “nothing but friends” (or in some scenarios “friends with benefits”)

and the funny thing is that the 4 letter word that women long for is “love” while the 3 letter word most guys look for is “sex”.. and interesting enough (or at least for me!) in arabic man is a 3 letter word, and woman is a 4 letter word!

* i am somehow convinced that selfishness and selflessness are both really bad qualities.. i even tend to believe selflessness is worse! with selfishness, you at least get what you want, you might hurt people along the way, or lose some, but still, your goals are achieved, your possessions are ‘possessed’, and your wants and needs are actually fulfilled, besides the fact that you’re all alone coz noone will stand that attitude… but you wont even notice it! coz you’re so self centered. however, when you’re selfless, its so energy draining, and psychologically tormenting! You do everything for the good of others, involuntarily, even if you would like to say no, something inside (the inner stupid person) says yes. you end up without doing much on your personal goals, over extending yourself for others will drain you emotionally and physically, most of it will go unappreciated so you will feel frustration, mostly innate, and one day you wake up resenting youself to the max!!! and then starts the psychological torment, you start detesting yourself for being the weak person that you are.. you dont lose people or hurt them like the selfish ones do, but you lose your self love.. which is worse and harder to handle..

* why on earth do some people have to say ‘thats so funny’ instead of, erm, actually laughing at something/ incident/someone!!! it doesnt make sense announcing it without laughing! eft!

* black does NOT look good on everyone! 

* its kinda sad when you reach mid/late twenties, and you know so little about your religion..

* middle class doesnt exist IMHO, its either rich, or poor, even in the holy books, there was never a mention of middle class! and its true.. If a financial crisis hits an individual, 75% of individuals will be considered poor, or get really close to becoming poor. the remaining 25% are either very poor, or very rich to not feel the crisis.

freaky friday!!

Posted: October 12, 2008 in damdoumization, i wanna know, random, thoughts

halloween is around the corner, well not quite the corner! but every year around this time i wish i can trade lives with someone else! just for a day.. a change of scenery, a diff set of fears and dreams, just living in someone else’s shoes for a day.. why cant we wear a costume and actually instantly transform into that character for that night?

if you were to trade lives for halloween, who would you chose?

i’d chose to be a fairy, or angelina jolie 👿

fashion donts (2)

Posted: October 7, 2008 in damdoumization, fashion, men, random

after fashion donts 1 which was aimed at girls, enter fashion donts 2! in which i shall commence to dissect the fashion crimes that some men all over the world are guilty of.

1. the worst thing a man can do by far: wear a suit without a belt, even SANTA knows better!!

it does nothing good for your look, so please never EVER go out without a belt on a suit, formal trousers or even jeans! only pairs of anything wearable that can do without a belt are shorts, capris and khakis, but a suit or jeans (whether proper formal jeans or torn out/worn out jeans) without belts are a complete murder of fashion!

2. which brings us to another suit/jeans no-no, WHITE SOCKS.

Never, and i mean NEVER, even under threat, wear white socks under a suit or jeans, even if you’re wearing sneakers, thats what gray was created for! wear only dark shades matching your suit and/or shoes color. the most tricky suit color is navy blue, if you’re not wearing a navy blue shoe since they are SO unbelievably hard to find even for women attire, wear a black shoe with black socks, and if you chose to wear dark brown shoes under a navy blue suit (which i personally find more appropriate and a lot classier than black) then you wear navy blue socks matching your suit shade or dark brown matching your shoe color.

3. suspenders, one word: why???

unless you are a) a cop b) a chick c) steve urkel (jaleel white), then suspenders should not exist in your fashion vocab!

4. formal wear in very luminous bright colors:

please view exhibit A:  and exhibit B:

unless you’re in show business or a clown, please refrain from wearin a red suit or a magenta shirt to work. it doesnt ‘scream’ professionalism.

5. sequined shirts and t-shirts (need i include – GULP – pants?!): 

if its not halloween and you’re going as 1) Elvis 2) a drag queen 3) a disco ball, then DO not, for the love of God, wear anything sequined!

6. the ‘white boy’ afro:

we do not need to witness you challenging mother nature & growing your hair against gravity, especially if you’re not black at birth!! nothing more tacky than a white boy thinking he’s P Diddy, even Eminem knew better, he kept his over peroxided do as he sang black.

there’s so much more on my mind, but of course, thats what sequels are for!

deja vu 6

Posted: August 20, 2008 in life, random, thoughts

more of my fave old posts from the blog that i deleted… apologies to those who already read them. im just trying to keep their memory alive =D
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isnt it amazing how some ppl keep their walls up even when they’re tired and want to let their ‎guard down but their inner protector stands firm to the decision it made to keep them away from self ‎inflicted pain? ‎

is it easier being in ‘safe mode’ all the time? doesnt it actually take more effort to keep track of ‎what you give out or not bout yourself? doesnt hurt help us grow and evolve and shape a better ‎judgement and a more solid character? why would one wanna miss out on a great relationship and ‎connection with others that can result from sharing innermost feelings and thoughts? sometimes ‎it doesnt work out yes, but that will give you the better knowledge next time.. and when it works ‎out, you wud have gained great friends and maybe even met your true better half in the process. ‎

i think hurt teaches us valuable lessons, and usually they are about ourselves, lessons about our ‎courage, strength, emotional intelligence, our endurance, etc etc. it can either open your eyes to your ‎weaknesses, or surprise you with your innate strengths. ‎

being the social person that i am, i met a lot of ppl who are so private and emotionally secure that i ‎wonder, whats the worse that cud happen if they opened up a little? how do they live their life ‎THIS bottled up? how does it feel being in their shoes and always avoiding sharing their fears/ ‎thoughts/ feelings and prolly ending up feeling all alone in the world (and maybe even BEING all ‎alone for the rest of their time)? is it really easier than a few scars that can make them stronger ‎with time?? ‎

 

yeah the title has some pun intended..

my question is, have you ever wished you were of a different ethnic background? ever wished to be of a race you’re not? for whatever reason whether their looks or their rich(er) culture or their lifestyle or anything that might attract you more than your own race..

i always think of that, and even though i am a proud palestinian, i dream about being from anothe race.. wierd aren’t i! anyone else as wierd as well?

randomness 2

Posted: August 5, 2008 in damdoumization, life, random, thoughts

* this whole murder case of suzan tamim is sad.. what a sad depressing life she led, and what a way to exit.. may she be in a better place now..

* men dont change. so if a woman’s sole mission in life is to change a man, she’s a fool!

* there are a lot of paradoxes in life, one of which, is why oh why do we not get what we want when we want it? when we stop wanting things, they come to us with major ease .. bleh!

* compatibility means nothing in friendships, why should it mean anything in relationships? we grow up with friends from different backgrounds and different financial levels and different beliefs and we make them friends for life, why is it when chosing a life partner we get all caught up with those factors when all that matters is getting along spiritually and personality wise? i know i know, someone will argue that background shapes people into who they are today, i disagree, experiences do.

* i keep wondering what did people speak before islam? before the quran? in jahiliyeh, even in the time of the great Pharaoh.. was it arabic they spoke back then in Egypt? i mean the prophet (PBUH) obviously spoke arabic, since sunna is in proper Fus7a arabic.. when did arabic originate then, in what time?

LOL-ing @ the gym

Posted: July 28, 2008 in bla bla bla, lol, random

i’m not sure if it means anything different in Farisi, but there’s this Iranian lady with me at the gym, bless her heart, who goes by the name of: Khateerah ( meaning dangerous) LOOOL!

* life is hard, man! we watch too many movies and listen to too many songs and read too many books to convince ourselves that happy endings and fairytales are possible, but in reality, life is fairly hard! things dont happen like we want them to, or expect them to, or even as they’re supposed to after a series of events and pursuances! there is always a way things can be messed up, and it usually DOES happen. i am not being pessemistic here, but i guess i have had enough time being the optimistic fool that i am…

* i truly believe every human has one form or another of a psychological illness/abnormality/disorder.  also i always believed that people are schizophrenic by nature. since we have a ‘heart’ and a ‘mind’ and usually they’re on different frequencies.. unless one of them is more dominant than the other, EVERYONE has at least a pair of disorders!

* its amazing how people come into our lives and bring a little of their karma with them.. im sure u have met at least one person who brought you a bit of good luck in a moment in time, i believe like attracts like, and people are contageous.. if your disposition is happy, it will rub off on the people in your small and even big circle.. if your mood is often blue and negative you will somehow pass it on to the people around you.. whether you want to or not.. people are but bottles of colors! you bring your blue and the person next to you brings their red, and you both will end up with a little bit of purple..

* for every action there is indeed a reaction..! the intensity of it however depends on how deep the psychological disorders of the person are!

after being in the blogosphere since december 06, i have a general idea of almost every character there is out there occupying a bit of globospheric space.. and since i am bored out of my skull today although i have SO much work but too depressed to work, i have come up with a short list of new tags/categories that i feel i will be seeing soon in the jordanian blogosphere:

1. Ijbed (Khouloud & Hareega’s blogs exclusively)
2. Bala Gafyeh (and that will of course not be seen on Garfan’s blog coz everything there is bgafyeh)
3. Gol3aaa6 (prolly on Maher’s and Samantha’s blogs)
4. Egleb wejhak (tailored for Rambling Hal)
5. 3oGlah (KJ’s pali/jor alter ego, bout time he had one!)
6. Bilmsharma7i (Adoosh 5as nass)
7. Kiss the Cook (prolly on Qwaider’s!)
8. ZahaaaaGGGG  (ma3 il smiley, & exclusivley to wonders)
9. Damaaar (Jazora bima enno dayman mukta2eb)

5alas bikaffi, zhe2et  
(i’ll add some later on, or add yours if you come up with anything!)