You know what, Hollywood has been playing with our heads for so long, most of us are delusional with the idea of the ‘perfect love story’, ‘true love’, ‘soulmates’.. I admit i was delusional too.. Love isnt seamless and easy and sweet all the time, movies dont show what happens next after the big proposal, or [...]
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How I Hate Your Mother
Posted: April 15, 2011 in bittersweet, feelings, inside out, rant, sad me, thoughtsThe main reason why women don’t like mama’s boys is because competing with the woman who gave birth to him just isn’t an option. For me, it is primarily because I do not see any ‘alpha male’ quality anymore. And I need to respect my man, knowing he can stand up for himself and for [...]
inside out
Posted: March 12, 2011 in bittersweet, damdoumization, feelings, inside out, sad me, thoughts(WARNING: vulnerable post ahead!) I had the week from hell last week. It stirred up a lot of emotions, and I am not a melodramatic person, nor an uber emotional one. I am very compassionate however. and that is a downside. as I feel what people feel, and I get sad when they do, happy [...]
January.. overlook
Posted: February 20, 2010 in bittersweet, damdoumization, feelings, inside out, people, relationships, thoughtsThis January was one big wedgie! I swear my life is one crazy rollercoaster and a series of dramatic events that I do not know how and why I keep coming across. But no complaints, I guess no one can do my life but me. and I believe that God knows my capacity, and wont [...]
Disappointment is a sort of bankruptcy – the bankruptcy of a soul that expends too much in hope and expectation. – Eric Hoffer Sometimes, unintentionally, i give some people the benefit of the doubt, or too much credit, or just like them enough to expect the best out of them. Normally, i dont have much [...]
he was supposed to turn 60 in June. God had other plans. mom texted sis and i saying he’s tired, and that we should come down and see him.. hopefully when he sees us he will feel better. we did not even set foot in the plane when we got the call that he had [...]
* its funny (not funny ha ha) how some people like to ruin things for others when its ruined for them! why dont people just leave others alone?! especially the happier ones.. karma is not be taken lightly people! * i read this sentence somewhere and ever since i did, its been stuck in the [...]
* what is it bout national day that makes ppl ‘snap’ in this country! the traffic and accidents and ta5mees and burning wheels and face paint and all that crap! its ittihad, not ta7reer! * as Eid drops by every year, i find myself more detached of every jolly emotion it should bring.. im more convnced [...]
crash and burn..
Posted: November 23, 2008 in bla bla bla, feelings, inside out, life, random, thoughtssometimes.. you plan something unintentionally.. its not like you plan it on paper and figure out all its details, just something you want to happen.. sometime in the future in a way or another.. you’re just taking it a day at a time.. all signs are positive.. everything seems to be heading that way.. then [...]
my best friend of 5 years will be getting married in Jan, and moving away to her soon-to-be husband’s country of origin, as he is happy and she also loves it there, in addition to that, he has a great job where he will be providing very well for her and their future family. we call each other everyday in [...]
a tale of two entities.. independent and on her own.. thought she needs not a partner, all she needed were friends.. silent when times are tough, even when her eyes can scream the words.. they found each other when they both werent looking.. it was an instant connection, love at first sight.. they [...]
why do people hope? why do we hold on to hope like naive innocent children when we know there is a (big) chance of disappointment? what is it about the thought of a better tomorrow or the thought of things working out like you’ve painted them in your head that keeps us going in life? or [...]
1. Thank you both for bringing him to this world, so i can meet him 19 years later.. and hold on to him forever.. 2. Thank You Almighty for always watching over me, i would have never made it without Your Providence.. 3. Thank you love, for being who you are, and for always being there, and [...]
Untitled Leave me at the end of the world where all my screaming will be unheard there I can find myself alone.. In darkness where i feel safe and sound Solitude is the best friend you can get No hurt, no pain and no regret Leave me in a place to clear my head I [...]
is something i dont usually feel, since i am convinced that everything happens for a reason and usually all the mistakes and misjudgements that we do in our lives have a lesson to be learnt, and that they happened at a time when we werent in the best mental or emotional state and somehow that [...]
All they do is expect and never once stop to think constantly commanding respect when all they want is to see me sink In river Styx and they seem to neglect that i want to live in my life and be who i am that there is a different path i vigorously seek [...]
O, how i loathe goodbyes.. not all of them though.. just when the closest people leave anywhere for a long time.. i remember when i first went to uni, i was 16 and full of life, still am, but i was full of life and very naive, now i like to think i’ve crossed that stage.. i dint [...]
An image made of light I see clouds not so white a mixture of yellow, blue and grey some rays battle and go astray i sit with my hands holding my head i cant bear the sounds of silence, oh so dead.. an aching heart, a dormant mind an endless fight that’s not so kind [...]
im tired, sore, exhausted, & sleep deprived.. i have 1) a splitting headache, 2) an enormous urge to kill my boss, 3) an itch in my throat and signs of the flu (that wud be the gazillionth in 6 months!) i dowanna cook anymore, or do the laundry, or think of work, or even have [...]
Tears are words from the heart that cannot be spoken. -Anonymous Qwaider’s post about crying and all the comments on how crying is so liberating and such a big relief made me feel a bit alienated.. i donno how but it felt wierd not to be able to relate.. i havent cried in, oh, 6 [...]
last nite i had a full 5 hour sleep.. finally! its been a while.. funny (not funny ha ha) thing is that in all them sleepless nites, most my thoughts revolve around 2 major things that i somehow supress during my waking hours only to come back and haunt me at nite.. God/religion and how [...]
inspired by Asoom’s experience here with an ex-friend.. i SO relate to that, and i dint wanna hijack her post i rarely have female friends, simply coz i was not programmed to be like most of them, in my mind, im 100% male. im practical, i dont envy other ppl, i hold no grudges, i [...]
WARNING: these thoughts might offend some of u… regretfully, i am not vieled.. and even tho i know its very wrong, i still cant commit.. yet, everyday i come across tens if not hundreds of ‘vieled’ girls/women, and by ‘vieled’ i am referring to the ‘modern’ 7ijabis who wear second-skin-tees-under-a-tight-camisole-barely-covering-their-bums-in-that-tight-jeans or short-skirts-with-knee-high-boots and consider themselves [...]
